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Me, in a nut shell

Thursday, August 31, 2006

An update...

I have recently had trouble getting online, thus the lack of posts...

Life has been ok recently. Things have spiced up to say the least. You may or may not remember Brandon. Well...Things are beginning to go the way that I have wanted them to for awhile. He has been paying me attention...Lol...Geeze I'm so fucking pathetic! Yeah...He is so hot.

Then there is my friend from Phoenix, Terry...We have had this intense emotional connection for a long time. When we first met up here in Sedona he had a girlfriend. He made it clear to me that while he never would cheat on her, things were rocky. We never fooled around or anything but he came up with his buddy many times and partied and crashed at my place. I went down to see them for the first time last saturday and had a blast. It had been almost 6 months since we had all hung out, with phone conversations being our only connection. He told me a few days before I went out there that he and his chick split about 5 months ago...Well....Needless to say I am sure, we slept together. It was pretty intense. I might go down to see him again this weekend, but I won't know until later today.

Then there is that guy who came over my house a few weeks ago to watch a movie. For some reason I really like this one and I can't quite put my finger on it. This past friday night we hung out again, he asked me back to his house. It was real late and we were both exhausted so we laid down and watched Sin City. We were all cuddly...He's so damn adorable. I had gotten a ride from him and it was so late that he asked me if I just wanted to stay. I told him that I had to be home by 8 am. He didn't have a problem with that. I slept with him in his bed and snuggled with him the rest of the night. We did make out, but that was the extent of it. Maybe thats why I like him so damn much, because he wasn't handsy with me. Sigh....So many boys, so little time...Roflmao...

Otherwise, not much else has been going on. Business is slow and I had to take a second job at which I work almost 40 hours a week. I am working myself to death, but fuck it right? At least the bills are getting paid.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

A lil help please?

I am sorry about the confusion here lately..There was some hullabaloo surrounding the contents of this blog. Jaime found my blog and went a little crazy about my last post. I got nervous that she was going to show her friends and so I removed my archive and made all my posts for the last 8 months into drafts because I really didn't want to delete them, but as far as I know it's the only way to make them so nobody can see...

Jaime and I made up. I think she understood that I was feeling bad and a bit betrayed. Apparently there were also some things that I had said and done that made her feel betrayed by me as well. So, we are giving this another go and have promised to talk about the crap that's bothering eachother.

On the other hand, I had a date last night. The guy is a lil young...(ahem isn't that my M.O. anyway? Lol...) He is absolutely ADORABLE though and seems real sweet. He came over to my house last night and we watched Waiting..That movie is so great! I think it went ok, though we didn't kiss we did cuddle. I think that I might have scared him a bit just for the fact that I felt compelled to insist to him that if, in fact, we did hang out at my house that he know that I wasn't trying to sleep with him.. (I recently had someone over to chill out and when he was leaving he didn't look ok. We had been drinking and smoking. I offered him to crash on my couch if he needed to. He said he was ok, then he left. Now he has the impression that I was trying to sleep with him and he's telling EVERYBODY. When I tried to clear the air and assure him he had misunderstood my intentions he laughed and said "ok" in a clearly sarcastic manner...) So maybe he was nervous that I might freak out on him. Or perhaps he just decided he isn't really attracted to me. I do not know. He hugged me and told me to call him. Should I call, or should I wait for him to call me? If I should call him, when is it appropriate to do so?

HELP ME! It has been made very clear to me that when it comes to the "rules" of dating and friends that I am completely clueless...

He seemed very cuddly during the movie and everytime I got a lil snugglier, he would settle right in as if he were comfortable. Ugh. I suck at reading people. I do not know one way or the other...

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Fun pics..